Assuming is good, some say. Assuming is bad, I say.
Assuming sets expectations and when it’s not met… Tat’s it… the castle crumbles down and you find it hard to build it again. Many things in life are not completely in our hands, though some great men say, “Your life is in your hands".
Selfish
Everything in life definitely has some kind of domino's effect. But the funny part is, when you are selfless people doesn’t really notice you! (That is…no domino's effect), all they do is take advantage (may be unconsciously!). If you begin to be selfish the whole world turns against you and tags you for being such an evil! Following which everything around you goes wrong and you lose your peace!
P.S: I am so glad May is almost over! I am planning to keep milling! (Keeping fingers crossed that JUNEis going to be AWESOME!)
1. Pick out a scar you have, and explain how you got it. On my knee! I used to go in the school bus when I was in my primary school. Once (More than once actually :D) I missed the bus, ran after it, caught it but slipped and fell! ;) [Ah.. so much like my life!!! :)]
2. What is on the walls in your room? Paint, clock, and some pictures!
3. What does your phone look like? Black with silver mini brick! ;)
4. What music do you listen to? Anythin and everythin!!!
5. What is your current desktop picture? 6.What do you want more than anything right now? A pill to erase this whole month’s memories! Trust me… worst ever!
7. Do you believe in gay marriage? What does my belief have to do with it! It’s an individual's wish!
8. What time were you born? Guess a little early! ;)
9. Are your parents still together? Well… of course!
10. What are you listening to? People yelling in the name of discussion!
11. The last person to make you cry? It’ll be myself!
12. What is your favorite perfume/cologne? Charlie
13. What kind of hair/eye colour do you like on the opposite sex? Black/brown or black/grey ;)
14. Do you like pain killers? Nah!!! Are they chocolate truffles to like em?
15. Are you too shy to ask someone out? Nah!!!
16. Fave pizza topping? Pineapple and chicken ;)
17. If you could eat anything right now, what would it be? Chocolatesssss
18. Who was the last person you made mad Tumaini? He he
19. Is anyone in love with you? Many animate, inanimate, lively, lifeless things are!
She woke up in the morning, still unsure of what happened the previous night. The alligatored porch showed no signs of seeped rainwater. “hmmm… I just hope I was not dreaming!” she thought to herself.
The air was still moist; the sun did not take everything away! She took her morning coffee in her favorite mug, sitting on a patch of grass in her verandah. Warm, shimmering rays from the sun gradually crept from her fingers to her face, but her eyes were fixed on two squirrels squabbling over nothing.
“Your cell phone is screaming, come and pick it!” her mom’s cry woke her from the blank thoughts she was sailing in.
“Yes ma… I got it!” she said calmly and moved inside her house.
“Hey, I wasn’t expecting your call so early in the morning! What’s up? ”
“I don’t know… I have been thinking of what happened last night.Just couldn’t sleep. Did you sleep well?”
“I slept well. Have I told you that you sometimes sound like someone who has jumped right out of a chick flick?”
“Ha ha… yes I know. That was the problem; I am spoilt by watching too many movies off late.”
“hmmm… are you alright? You sound different!”
“Yes… I am clear now. As in… I have been thinking about what happened last night, I think I have really rushed everything. I am really sorry, I shouldn’t have done that.”
“Yes, you have rushed it, but what are you sorry for?”
“Well… this is not going to work out!”
“hmmm”
“I am not ready for this yet, we can be good friends like before you know.”
“But…you can’t…You said… Never mind!”
“C’mon, trash me all you want. I know it’s my bad. Just take it out of you.”
“hmmm… I guess I can’t, I still like you!”
“hmmm… I am sorry. Sorry is not the word but this is not going to work. I have moved on because I know it won’t work, it’s better to move on now than repent later. Moreover, you are 2 hrs elder to me!”
“Whaaaaat? 2 hours? Okay, so?”
“So, I don’t know… but nothing seems fine. It was better when we were friends.”
“Yes, you talk like someone else now! And it’s definitely not better now!” she wanted to scream but zipped it. “Okay… I will try to be friends with you.”
“We will be best friends forever ”
“hmmm… ok! If you say so! I got to go now, will talk to you later” She was not sure if she will ever talk to him after that. She was plainly hurt and nothing felt right, she gasped for air in the suddenly vacuum room.
“Whatever it is… it’s just a dream! Wake up…wake up…” she tried hard but could not wake up, it’s not a dream, she realized. “I did not ask for this! I know him only since a week! Why should I feel so heavy at heart? But…is this how things happen these days? Was I busy with myself so much that I did not notice the changing world and people?” A stream of lament escaped her eyes and dropped into the coffee.
“Are you still on the phone? You are getting late and your dad will arrive at the station anytime. I can’t referee another fight between you two. Get up and get ready.” Her mom shouted from the kitchen.
“This is reality”, she thought. “I was just sleeping for a whole week; I will forget this, this will pass... this will pass…” She got ready chanting just that. She felt bad that it’s over before it could even start, “But isn’t it good that it’s all over so quick?” she consoled herself and hurried to the railway station to pick her dad.
As said by a good friend, Love indeed, is misunderstood and lost in the seethes of life. Love is precious, it should be earned and yearned for, and it shouldn’t be given to anyone like a freebie! You are worth more than what you think you are and it’s time you realize it. Life goes on no matter what!
